May 16th, 2001

god i'm nuts, crazy, weird


Fiddled with that test Jesse and Neko and them took. And there might be more, had a bad habit of hitting the wrong answer. But here's what it came up with:

* Bipolar I Disorder
* Panic Disorder
* Generalized Anxiety Disorder
* Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder

The first three don't really throw me, the attacks date back a few years, and I haven't had one in a while that I remember, and I think they're on my mental health record. I'm ALWAYS worrying, so that fits. I know I'm bipolar, that's the one pscyh disorder I've had followed for the last three years.

But Obsessive-compulsive personality disorder? not sure where that comes from.

*looks it up* Oh. Oh. My tendancy to be a stubborn perfectionist at times. :P

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sabatoging myself

I do this every single time there's a test or a project. Figure I'd study for it, and never get around to hitting the books. It's annoying, and I wish I knew why I was so intent on sabatoging myself. I think maybe I need to spend a little less time on IRC in the next two weeks. Grr. And it's not even Sims that's entertaining me. Just stupid stuff. Stupid stuff I should quit letting bother me. :P

Mom's doing alright though, so that's good to hear. Now if I can just make it to the first week of June and my big CCNA test, and I'll be able to breathe and get stuff done again. Cold's slowly going away too. :)

But first I have to get through the gauntlet of math test and Cisco presentation before getting anywhere else.
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