October 28th, 2003

scared, trapped

it's best to stay away

fragile katster.

i was going to write about today and stuff, but it hurts too much to do it right now. So maybe I will and maybe I won't.

but there are days when the 'not good enough' beast jumps up and bites me. and he grabbed hold of my leg and wouldn't let go just before I was going to sit down and start composing to get the rocky day out of my head.

so yeah, just be careful with me the next few days, because I am fragile and my mood state is all over the map, which is making me wonder if this is the dread mixed state.

who knows?

anyway, i'm going to stop being a bad katster now and go follow orders...even though sleep is losing ATM. But...I'm going to ride it out, all by myself, and I don't need help and I don't want help and I'm going to ride this out or die trying.
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