May 30th, 2005

scared, trapped

this is the nature of the game

Holy goddamn, Preacher.

As most of you are aware, I'm manic-depressive, and I struggle with issues about taking my pills properly.  But I think I'll try again.  As best as I can.

I'm not sure it'll help this level of depression I've found myself in through this whole spring, and exacerbated from the trip to Sac and other general issues of parental stuff.  As I've maybe hinted, I'm faced with the choice of either staying in Redding, a place which i hate and which there doesn't seem to be a job for me, or I move to Sac and live six months to a year in a bedroom barely big enough for my *bed*, let alone stuff like my books or computing hardware.

And I thought we *learned* what happens when I get stuck in a very small room from my junior year of college.  And this time, I don't even have the option to loft the bed.

Oh well.  I'll survive somehow, I have every other time.  Right?

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