Tired, but I can't sleep. Not for lack of trying, not for being utterly exhausted, but mainly because I can't get my brain to shut off. And of course, the question comes as to why I can't get my brain to shut off. You'd think depression would explain a lot of it, and it is a lot of it, but it's not everything.
There's a lot of tension here. I feel somewhat trapped. Yeah, I *didn't* have to come home for the summer, and I did, and I don't know what to do now. And it's doing nothing but making me more upset and depressed with myself. Yes, goddamn it, I suck. Twenty-four and I'm forced to spend a summer at home with my parents. Even my sister is keeping an apartment elsewhere and doesn't have to stay here.
And I hate it.
But I don't know what to do about it, it's not like I can lock myself in the bedroom until kingdom come.
*sigh* What now?